People say to act your age not your shoe size – now I’m a size 3, how nice would it be to be able to act like a 3yr old! I could have someone brush my teeth, wash my face and dress me, I could scream out ‘Let it Go’ at the top of my voice in Sainsburys and have people think I’m adorable I wouldn’t have a care in the world, for my world would be to eat, play and sleep, with the occasional musical number!
As it is I am turning the big 3 0 next month and I am not really sure how I feel about it yet, I have nothing planned (hoping hubby has that covered but this could be my first terrible 30yr old mistake!) and to be completely honest I actually only feel 21-ish.
The other day my age well and truly hit home, whilst out for a walk with the kiddos we spotted a lad roller blading. I’m not sure what it is but I always get a little nervous when passing teenagers, its not because they intimidate me – truth be told its because I actually think that I am ‘down with the kids’ I honestly think that they must look at me and maybe age me in my early 20’s?!?!? I passed him honestly thinking to myself that I could still do that, I very, very nearly stopped to ask him about if he can grind or do jumps. I was even going to mention how I used to play roller hockey in my mighty ducks shirt?!?!!? Agrhh! I am so glad that I stopped and took stock of how I may have appeared to him… yellow mac (it was spitting!) pram with a newborn screaming, and an unruly pre-schooler wearing a tutu, a mum, old! I have made a little promise to myself that my 30’s are going to be my decade, I am going to step out of my comfort zone, try new things and push myself personally and professionally. I’m going to try and be a better baker (by which I mean not burn every cake I make) a better mum (put my phone down more and be more present) a better wife (maybe cook for him once or twice?!) and maybe just maybe welcome another little T!
I have one month left of being in my 20’s and to say that they have been jammed packed is an understatement, there has been tears, laughs and kids! I have moved to Bristol and come home to Wales again, married my soul mate, kept and made some wonderful friends, travelled the wilds of Western Canada, survived 3 weeks in a van on a road trip with only 3 gears, swam in the chilly seas of West Wales, laughed a lot, cried a fair deal, loved and lost, worked for my independence and my greatest achievements of all welcoming little miss s and master r into the world.
20’s Thank you, you’ve been pretty good!!